Thursday, 23 November 2006

++++ThursdayThirteen #three++++

Thirteen Facts about me (some of them are very private, hope you don't mind)...

1. I was born on 23rd of December in 1978. The calculated date was the 24th. If I were born on 24th of
December I probably would have got the Christine or Christian (if I would have been a boy). As you know, here in German the 24th of December is the "Main-Christmas-Day": Holy Evening. This is the day when we decorate our Christmas tree, go to church (not everyone does this, depends on whether they're religious or not), have dinner, sing Christmas songs and give presents to each other. So we celebrate birth of Jesus Christ. That's why my name would have been Chris then... (that's what my mommy told me!)
But for that I'm born on 23rd, my name is Sonja. (But all my friends call me "Sonny")

2. I lost my mommy in 1998. She died of cancer. It was very hard for me and still is sometimes. It's really sad that my mom wasn't there when I graduated from school in 1999, she won't be there when I get married and she never could hold her grandchildren.
But in times of troubles she's always by my side. I'll keep her in my memory and always in my heart. And I'm sure she's my guardian angel who sent me Mr. C to take care of me. It's really sad that Mr. C didn't have the chance to get to know my mommy. She was a remarkable woman.
Mommy, I miss you so much!!!! (Uh good, that really makes me start crying!)

3. I met Mr. C in 2004. After a not so good start, we fell in deep love. He's the one I'm sure I will love till the end of time. He's still by my side although I did something hard to forgive. I love you so much Mr. C!

4. One year ago I had a miscarriage. Although this was really sad, it made our love even stronger. When I was in hospital for curettage he was with me. In the evening when we were in my flat again, he suddenly asked if I like to move together with him. SURE!!! I was so happy coz I never thought he wanted to!!!! Everything rushed by then. Within one month we found a nice flat and moved together.

5. Last year in November was a point of inflexion in my life. Since then, my life was kind of a nightmare and I couldn’t wake up. I’ve done so many mistakes, hurt so many people I love. I was straight on my way down. Shortly before I crashed the ground, I woke up. I was woken up.

“Friends are people that love you although they know you…” (Thank you so much C+S…)

6. Mr. C and I live together for nearly on year now. That was my best decision ever. It really saved me. I don’t suffer that much on depression since we moved together. I’m really getting better!!!!!! I have the strength to carry on now!!!!

7. I’m doing a vocational retraining at College. This is my last chance to improve my chance to find a good job to earn some money before we built a family. So does Mr. C.

8. I have blond hair and hazel eyes.

9. I have to elder sisters. Mrs. A is 40 (that’s a fact she doesn’t really like coz she’s still single) and works as a tax collector. Mrs. H is 38. She’s the mother of my cute little 1 and a half niece Mrs.F. She’s a single mom and not working.
I don’t have a really good relation ship with my sisters. Lots of reasons for that, I maybe tell you more about this sometime, don’t know yet.
My sisters are my sisters.

10. I’m overweight and really not happy with this. But I’m happy that Mr. C still loves me although I’ve put more weight on since the day we met. However, I want to loose weight. I want to be skinny again. I know I can. I was in 2000. I weighed 65 kg (about 143 lb). Now I have about 20 kg plus….
I nearly resigned. But I still hope that someday I’ll be that skinny again. I just have to fight my weaker self….
But I won’t give up!!!!!!!

11. My favourite colours are blue and pink (hey, I’m a girl!!!).

12. I love handcrafting and if I make a gift for someone I prefer to do something special and just for him/her.

13. I am me.

Okay, that’s not so easy to talk about oneself. It really took me nearly two hours to write all this down. I hope you liked it….

Thought- and thankful Hugs, have all a safe and happy Thanksgiving,


Sanni said...

Am I the first one to comment on this marvelous list???

You know I´m always grief-stricken when you talk about your Mommy... she IS still there - she just moved up to heaven... taking care of you every single day!

Concerning to your last years changes:
You´ve got a feather in your cap!
Makes me pround to be your friend...



MommyBa said...

It's great to know more about you Sonja. :)

Take care and have a happy Thursday!

K T Cat said...

I had blond hair and hazel eyes. Now I have salt and pepper hair with hazel eyes. Where did that blond go? :-)

Christine said...

This is a great list. Don't give up or give in during the hard times. They too will pass.

Caylynn said...

Thank you for sharing so many details about yourself. So sorry to hear you lost your mom at such a young age. She sounds like she was a wonderful woman.

Ich wünsche Ihnen einen schönen Tag.

Tink said...

That's a very interesting list, thank you for sharing all of this. I lost my mum in June, so I can relate to that very much...
Thanks for visiting my TT.

JAM said...

This is a good list, and what T13's are all about; getting to know one another.

Just stay determined to work hard and fight for what you want in life. I suffer from depression, but every day I have to decide all over again to live and to be there for my family.

Keep your chin up and be determined that you WILL make the most of life.

I lost my Dad in 1994, and my older brother in 2001. Some days it's like they just died yesterday, the grief is so strong. But like you, I feel they are with me, too.

Terri said...

Thank you for visiting my blog. I really enjoyed reading your list. I can only imagine how difficult it must be to lose your mom when you're only 20. But I have no doubt she is constantly with you and her spirit will never leave.
Wishing you all the best on going to school....good for you! I know it'll be worth it. I didn't return to college till age 25 and it changed my life.
All the best to you.

Mikala said...

Awesome list - and really awesome blog template.

I love Germany, my boyfriend's family is from Nagold (a small town in Southern Germany) and we've visited them there. Gorgeous, gorgeous country.

The Shrone said...

I enjoyed reading more and learning more about you. Pink is one of my favorite colors, too! What type of handcrafting do you like to do? I think handmade gifts are the best!

scooper said...

I think it's very brave of you to write this list. Good job.

Twyla said...

What a great list. Thanks for sharing. I lost my mother 3 years ago, when I was I know how you feel.

Susan Helene Gottfried said...


I'm really glad you stopped by West of Mars, because I might have missed your TT if you hadn't. And this is one of the most heart-felt, heart-BARING TTs I may have ever seen.

Just for posting it, I admire you. I bet it took a lot of strength.

Come back and visit me at West of Mars whenever you'd like. Strong women are appreciated in my corner of the world!

The Mistress of the Dark said...

Lovely list. I think we've all been through a period like your number 5. Sometimes it takes hitting bottom or coming close to it to get things right.

Thanks for coming by my place today.

Domestic Goddess said...

I love your list. My mom died from cancer about 4 1/2 years ago. I'm with ya on that one!

Shash said...

You opened your heart and shared, that's a good thing.

ChupieandJ'smama said...

That's a very revealing list. Thanks for sharing so much about yourself. You have been through a lot and the hard times make us stronger. I wish you only the best.

Bond said...

Sonja: Thank youo fro continuing to share you wonderful life... You have moved out of the TT list and are now in my Daily Reads list.

MInTheGap said...

That's some interesting things about you-- especially the information about Germany and Dec. 24.

Thanks for stopping by!

Missy said...

I commend you on sharing such personal things. Great list.

Tut mir leid über deine Mutter.
(I hope I said that right)


Amy Linder said...

Very nice. Thanks for sharing a part of yourself.

Take care.

Amy :)

ivan said...

[sweet_kitty] - sorry about your mom. I know that's hard w/o one. But of course, you know that she is watching over you and guiding all the way. *hugs*

Nathalie said...

I almost started to cry reading your TT, I think it's very brave of you to share it with us.
I hope that things will only get better from now on.
Thanks for visiting my tt!

Enhance Life said...

I came across your site for the first time. Great site! It has attitude! :-)


Rav`N said...

Thanks for sharing, and such personal details too. I'd find it very hard to do so myself.

Nadiah Alwi said...

This TT is sooo beautiful that touch my heart.

I've just lost my GrandMa and it's hard.


Janet said...

I'm sorry to hear about your's tough losing a parent at any age. Glad to hear, tho, that your life seems to be better!

Anndi said...

Loved the list sweetie.. great to get to know you better! The thing about loss.. I firmly believe your mom will hold your children, angels hold you everyday, your mother is your angel.

I love that you are you.. what a wonderful person to be!

she said...

I think it takes a lot of courage to write such a personal list - and yet sometimes that's what T13 is all about.

I sometimes wish that the losses we feel would somehow fade and be less painful (I lost my dad to cancer), but then again I'd be afraid of forgetting something important when it does.

alisonwonderland said...

thanks for stopping by my blog! i enjoyed your list very much. i also have hazel eyes, and pink is my favorite color too!

sending cyber hugs your way!

colleen said...

I still have my mom but not my dad. I lost two of my brothers and it broke my heart. Sorry you lost your mom so young.

Sorry I'm so late to the 13 play.

Melessa said...

Thanks for visiting my TT! My husband and I miss his mother very much too. Thanks for telling us more about you.

Joan said...

Very interesting. I am so sorry for the loss of your mother. I cannont imagine the sense of loss that brings. I hope I have to wait a long time to find out. Thanks for coming by my blog.