Tuesday, 6 March 2007


As you all could see, I haven’t posted for a long time. It’s not that I didn’t want to, I just didn’t have the power. I know that sounds strange but it’s true. I really felt exhausted. And I don’t really know why. Maybe it’s just this so called “spring lethargy”. Maybe it’s not. I don’t know. It all started nearly a month ago.

I think it depends on college (for them who don’t know yet I’m doing a vocational retraining). A new class started. It’s called ECDL (stands for European Computer Driving License). “We learn how to work with our PC.” The class is divided into modules. Access, IT-Basics (like what is a PC, a.s.o), Excel, Internet and Communication (Email, Microsoft Outlook), Word, PowerPoint. Each Module takes about two weeks.
When class started with Access I really thought: “Hey that’s fun!” And I still could learn something when we had Excel. But now I’m nothing but bored. I already knew “what is a Computer”. I’m working with Computer for over 10 years now!!! So I know how to send and receive an email or search for something on Google. And this is exactly what we’re doing since last week’s Monday. Sending and receiving E-mails, searching information on Google. Every day. Monday to Friday. 8 am until 4.30 pm. And there are still some people (about three or four) who ask questions like: “Ermm, how can I forward this email to all?” “How can I close this window??” Whenever these questions come up you can read our teacher’s thoughts in her face: “What did I teach them all that days?”
My thoughts then are: “Damn it!!! Why the hell aren’t you all able to follow these really simple instructions she gives us? Why can’t your brain save these explanations she gives us? WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE?????”

I know that might sound bigheaded but I really feel over-qualified. I don’t say I know everything. There are still things I need to learn using Microsoft Office. But what’s so difficult about adopting the stuff that our teacher’s training us? It’s okay if we talk about an issue for a few days. But why do we need to talk it over and over again??? I don’t understand that.
And what happened to me is that I sit in class and I’m bored out my wits. Every day. It’s even more exhausting to do nothing than work full power for 8 hours.

The only thing that cheers me up is being together with Mr.C when school’s out.
I got so much bored within the last two weeks that I felt back into my old bad habits: Come home, sit or lay down on the sofa, have supper, go to bed. The same was with Mr.C (he’s in a similar situation at college).

But on Sunday I decided that it’s enough now. I had to stop letting myself go.
I decided to restart yesterday.
And I did.
I went to college, sat down, switched on the PC, took out my mobile, connected my headset and listened to the radio. (My teacher didn’t say anything coz she knows that I don’t really need to follow class at the moment). That really helped! My mood wasn’t as bad as it was the days before. And when we went shopping after college, we had a basket full of veggies and fruits and other low-fat products. Being home again, I sat down on the sofa for half an hour to relax. After that I prepared supper. While the meal was cooking I did my exercises. Half an hour. Jesus! THAT was exhausting. But also very relieving. I felt good!

And I still do. I think I needed this “time out”. To find myself again.

So from yesterday on I’m back on my way to skinniness!!!!

Healthy food, keeping on my Weight Watchers Plan, minimum 15 minutes exercise per day.
And I still could need your support. I still exercise for comments!!! One comment = one minute extra exercise.

That’s all for now. School’s over for today. We’re going home now. See you soon, thanks for listening,

1 comment:

Jen said...

how much longer is the course?
sori its so frustating to you
is it possible for you to help that are finding it hard?

good on you for getting up eating welol and exercising again